Finally, submission is over!!! !!!
It has been a period of resent and fear. From the moment I started production (for presentation), I knew I was heading to Doom-Land. But it was too late for changes. Change now and it is a one-way ticket to Hell.
It is just human nature (or maybe it is just me) to make comparisons. The more I compared, the more worried I get. The fear of failure was dreadful. I even made plans to work next semester if I were to fail. Regrets overwhelmed me. I was prepared for the worst. There was a point where I simply thought of escaping reality by visiting the doctor.
After much courage and determination (or rather because I had no choice), I decided to face the music. The worst part was, I was the last victim to be judged. The fear and anxiety built up within me as I saw the others before me being scrutinized by the panel. When I started my presentation, I was surprised that I was actually rather calm and composed. In the end, the feedback given was useful and gave me some directions to my lost agenda. It was not as bad as I thought.
I guess this philosophy always works for me. I develop negative thoughts for something which may not really turn out as bad as I thought. I will tell myself to be mentally prepared and make plans for the worst. If the results turn out to be good, it gets really comforting. But if it is the vice versa, I will be able to accept the fact and move on with life. You can name this philosophy “Pessimism”. "Hope" is not in my dictionary. Somehow or rather, I guess I have learnt to exploit this ideology ever since the departure of Papa. This seemingly strong statue may just crumble to pieces when the hopes supporting this hollow façade are burst. “Pessimism” helps. I hope.
:: CLEANSING ::
Origins A Perfect World
B.Liv Glow and Shine
B.Liv Squeaky Clean
:: SKINCARE ::
Origins A Perfect World Toner
Botos Serum
B.Liv Shrink and Tighten
B.Liv Off With Those Heads
:: EYECARE ::
Origins High Potency Eye Cream
Faceshop Collagen Eye Patch
Shu E Lash Repair
:: COSMETICS ::
BRTC BB Cream
Skinfood loose powder
Loreal Mineral powder
Clinique Blusher
Majolica Mascara
:: MONTHLY SUPPLEMENTS ::
Meiji Collagen
Multi-vitamins
Vitamin C